Day 253 Lazy Lazy Jane

There’s a dental procedure called Open and Medicate. It’s a procedure performed on an infected tooth. The patient walks, or limps (yes, people sometimes limp their teeth hurt so bad), into the office, has the procedure, and leaves their pain behind. A temporary measure that gives the tooth a chance to calm down before a root canal is done.

The point is, it’s a quick-fix between point A (infected painful tooth), and point B (fully restored tooth). Well, I decided that I needed something like that to get me from point A (smoker, about a pack a day), to point B (non-smoker). I’ve been waiting for inspiration to hit. For me to find that umph to make room in my head to focus on quitting. I’m Lazy Jane, waiting for myself to just do the damn thing already.


The skies are clear and the sun is shining!  -The Universe


I decided to put aside my pride and ask for help. An Open and Medicate for my brain to give me a boost towards my goal. I originally asked my doctor for Chantix, but she insisted I start Wellbutrin first. She said it had something to do with the insurance (I have an HMO) wanting to see an attempt with Wellbutrin first, before they’d approve it, but also that she wanted me to give it a shot before the big guns come out. “But, I’m not depressed! I thrive off of pressure! I cannot afford to become complacent!” I’m terrified of drugs like these, guys. I will tell people until I’m blue in the face that they are a positive thing for many many people, but for me? I just never thought I’d take them. I always thought I could grit my teeth and get through anything. . . but my kids get older every day, and every day is another chance for a cell in my lungs to start to morph.

I told myself when I stopped drinking that I would focus on two other major changes later. I would worry about exercising and quitting smoking once I had managed to stop drinking. So here I am, 8 months into sobriety and I can honestly say I’m rock solid in sobriety. I just can’t seem to kick the bad habit or pick up the good one.

So, here I am. Another Day 1. Day 1 of antidepressants! Day 1 of me taking my own advice and doing whatever I need to do to take care of myself. Day 1 of Lazy Jane walking to find herself some damn water. Except not actually walking very far or very fast because I am giving myself time to focus on this, and I’ll start exercising later.


18 thoughts on “Day 253 Lazy Lazy Jane

  1. Kudos to you for even thinking about kicking the smoking habit in your first year of alcohol sobriety! After almost 5 1/2 years of sobriety, I haven’t even allowed myself to ponder kicking the cigarettes so to my mind, you are far from lazy.


  2. You’ll do this. You know you can quit anything. Remember that great guest post you wrote on my blog? People commented that the advice could be used to quit anything. You’ve got the tools – good luck!


    1. Did I put something in there about using help if you need it? Hopefully I did, lol. Because willpower isn’t working, and while I have so many reasons, none of them are drastic or short-term enough to make me move! Thanks for the encouragement!

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      1. It’s tough. I smoked under five for a few months and came off them with Nicotine tablets. I’ve been addicted to them for years. I suggest you don’t start on them 😦


      2. Yeah, I quit cold turkey about 4 years ago, and stopped for 4 months before picking it back up. And then when I was pregnant, I just naturally stopped, but started again (obviously). I won’t go with a nicotine replacement method because I know I’d just gravitate towards that! So the Wellbutrin seems like a leg-up on going cold turkey. Will follow up in a week or so!

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  3. I know a guy in treatment who picked up smoking soon after getting in there because every guy there (except me) was a smoker. I am lucky I never really tried smoking. I would be a two-pack a day guy for sure. But it’s difficult to kick – lots of friends have told me this – even harder when early in sobriety…so great job! Now if I can kick this sugar habit…

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  4. Focus on one thing at a time. Cross addiction is common and fine, just one thing at a time…I only really stopped smoking this year. Read alan the alan car book, it really helps. xxx


    1. I read that in 2014 and quit for 4 months! I have tried reading it again, but it just doesn’t have the same oomph it did the first time around. I feel like I am at a good place to try to shift some focus, so if feels like a very safe time to give quitting a go!


      1. Yay for being still sober! That’s awesome! happy belated one year! (I think you’re about 2 months ahead of me, and I’m just at a year now) I’m so glad to hear that all is well with you 🙂 I’m doing great, thank you! 🙂


      2. I’m so happy to hear that! Great news 😊 Hitting a year was awesome, and the struggle just isn’t there anymore. It took awhile, and a year is just such a great milestone. Congratulations on your sober-versary as well!

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