I have lived 185 days without a cigarette. This is a huge win, but it's also a huge struggle. I still battle the "just one!" thoughts constantly. Even as my fine lines become finer, my laughter that turns into coughing is less frequent, and even as I can smell my hands without shuddering. . . … Continue reading On Quitting Smoking. . .
I keep opening and closing the tab to write an entry every 5 days or so. I feel like there isn't much to say, but also so much to say that I don't even want to start. So here's my quick bullet list of things I want to write about "soon", so that another 200 … Continue reading 503 Days – 10 Things
There's a dental procedure called Open and Medicate. It's a procedure performed on an infected tooth. The patient walks, or limps (yes, people sometimes limp their teeth hurt so bad), into the office, has the procedure, and leaves their pain behind. A temporary measure that gives the tooth a chance to calm down before a root canal … Continue reading Day 253 Lazy Lazy Jane
Mondays suuuuuck. Even being sober doesn't improve Mondays*. I actually like my job, even though it's stressful. It's just shitty to return to the real world. No mid-afternoon snuggles or naps. No laundry gets done for the next 5 days. The work week is just. . .a lot of WORK. *sigh* *Okay, being sober does improve … Continue reading Day 228 A Monday
Weddings are awesome. Weddings are beautiful and happy and joyous. They give you a reason to buy a new dress and a reason to stop and reflect on people you (hopefully) love to pieces. It's a day for a bride and groom to shine. A reason to pawn your children off on someone else while … Continue reading Day 214 The View From the Top
207 days and I still haven't come up with a good enough reason to drink. Last Saturday night I went to my mom's bachelorette party. I was sitting there with 6 of her oldest friends, most of whom have been friends since they were kids, and my mom's friend asked why I wasn't drinking. Now, … Continue reading 207 Days
To get sober, all you have to do is not drink. Why did it take me so long to figure this out? I'm slowly figuring out why because if nothing else, sobriety gives you lots of mental clarity to reflect on why you drink/drank, and why you aren't anymore. I think a huge part of … Continue reading Day 154
I feel like a veteran. Like I've been sober for years. Like I am so incredibly solid in this sobriety thing, and I will never falter. In 2014, I went about 4 months without smoking. I quit with the help of Allen Carr's book, and then I went on a vacation. I was first with my … Continue reading Day 131, 4ish months?!
I had a wonderful Christmas this year! It was my third sober Christmas, so it wasn't a new thing, and I really feel that I've hit a sober stride. I'm not newly on the wagon (last year), or pregnant (2014), I'm just sober and enjoying it. I have been swamped at work for a while, … Continue reading Day 118 Cranium Break
Drinking is a conundrum. Rather, my drinking was a conundrum. On the one hand, I functioned well and I had my issue tucked away neatly where hardly anyone could see it. Hardly anyone knew it was a constant source of obsession and pain. I'd enter into a conversation about drinking with extreme measure. I'd make sure … Continue reading Day 104